Rollercoaster Ride

What an emotional rollercoaster today has been. I drove 40 minutes to work and 45 minutes after I got there, I got a call from Dr. Zgrabik. The Neuro Opthamologist at the Cleveland Clinic wanted to see Princess as soon as possible. That sentence alone--caused a flurry of emotions in me and I just lost all control of rational thinking. What did they know---that they weren't telling me??? Thank goodness I have a wonderful boss, I didn't have to say much and he told me to "go, call if you need anything. " I drove the 40 minutes back to the school--mostly in tears, to pick up Princess. I saw Roo in the Hall and not wanting to scare her, just told her that I needed to take Princess to the doctor. Not a minute later---here comes Princess, skipping down the hall saying "Mommy." Absolutely no idea--how long her day is about to become. We met Mulley at home and then all 3 of us drove together. I did not want to be alone today. Once we got there--we started a waiting game. Thank goodness for large fish tanks and Spongebob Squarepants. We waited almost 2 hours---before we were even seen. In their defense--we arrived just as the doctor was going to lunch. Mulley and I were both starving as neither of us had lunch. Another thing I'm grateful for---100 calorie packs that fit in my purse. ;)
Once we were seen, they put Princess through a series of tests, then sent us back to the waiting area. About 20 minutes later, they called us again. This time we met the doctor--who did more tests. It seemed like it was tests, waiting , tests, waiting, etc. At one point--one of the assistants started doing a vision test that another assistant had completed only 20 minutes before. I tried to tell her, but she didn't catch on until Princess said,"I just did this!" Then came the dialating of the pupils--that was a little rough, 4 drops in each eye--2 that burned. After awhile, we were called back to see the doctor. They are calling it Sixth Nerve Palsy. It's usually brought about by a virus--but we are not sure how Princess got it as she hasn't been sick with the flu or earaches. The doctor said "Let's call it a fluke." Words I will never forget. He told us that he was not going to put her through and MRI. They are serious business--she would need to be sedated and he didn't think it was necessary. Her eyes are functioning completely normal--like nothing ever happened. He told us that Double Vision could mean a brain tumor, but in Princesses case--he is certain that she is not in danger of that and if he thought she was, he'd do an MRI in an instant. If her vision problems come back---he will do one immediately. I really trust both doctors who were recommended to us. They explained everything to Mulley and I. I'm not sure I feel 100% better, but I'm okay for now. I've spent that last 48 hours on this awful rollercoaster ride of emotions and my heart goes out to any parents that have children who are seriously ill. So for now, we are out of the woods and I hugging my children a little tighter tonight.

I can't even imagine

What I will do if this MRI comes back showing something. This weekend we had a bit of a scare with Princess. She woke up on Saturday and said that I had two heads. Thinking she was just being silly---I kind of brushed it off. Well, she continued. Saying I had 4 eyes, 2 noses, Roo had 2 heads, etc. I looked closely at her eyes and they just looked weird, ya know?? One eye was focusing straight at me and the other was turned towards her nose. Almost like she was cross eyed. I had Mulley come and take a look---His response was, "That just isn't right!" Note to self--never go on WebMD to look up something that concerns one of your family members. It just freaks you out. I called my mom---always need mom's opinion. She recommened an Opthamologist. Well, they wanted her to come in immediately--thank goodness we live 2 minutes away--because neither of us were dressed yet. They ran a series of tests. Princess preceded to tell the Doctor's assistant that " she had two heads side by side" and when the assistant turned around, she told her, " Oh--now one head is behind the other. " I know Princess had no clue what everyone was making a fuss over and actually thought it was kind of funny. The Opthamologist explained that it looks as though Princess has some strain on her sixth optic nerve. Usually it's caused by migraines, vaccinations, or an illness. Well, McKenna did complain of a headache on Monday. I never even gave thought to a 5 year old getting migraines though. I'm still not sure if it was. The Doctor recommened us to a Pediatric Neuro Opthamologist and most likely they will do an MRI. I'm worried and scared. Hoping for the best and scared that they will tell me something that will shake me to the core. What will I do, if her MRI shows that something is there??? I don't even want to think about it.